{"id":4021,"date":"2020-12-29T13:53:18","date_gmt":"2020-12-29T18:53:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/meredith.wolfwater.com\/wordpress\/?p=4021"},"modified":"2020-12-29T14:07:27","modified_gmt":"2020-12-29T19:07:27","slug":"in-all-the-bad-some-good-things","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/meredith.wolfwater.com\/wordpress\/2020\/12\/29\/in-all-the-bad-some-good-things\/","title":{"rendered":"In all the bad&#8230; some good things"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Wow, this has been a hard\u00a0year. No one&#8217;s life has been untouched by 2020 between the pandemic and\u00a0unrelenting\u00a0proof that the social safety net has been dismantled by late-stage capitalism, the state-sanctioned murders of black and brown people and ensuing protests, the horrendous wildfires that\u00a0felt like horsemen of the coming climate apocalypse, and\u00a0a stressful\u00a0election. It&#8217;s horrifying. Like all of us, my heart hurts for people who are suffering and those we&#8217;ve lost, while at the same time, I feel incomparable rage towards the government and institutions that could have made all of this so much less horrific. As Adrienne Maree Brown&#8217;s friend says in <a href=\"http:\/\/adriennemareebrown.net\/2020\/12\/22\/root-and-hibernate\/\" rel=\"noopener\" target=\"_blank\">her most recent blog post<\/a>,  &#8220;everyone needs more than anyone can give right now,&#8221; which makes us all feel so powerless because no matter how much any of us gives, it feels like a drop in the ocean.<br \/>\nIt&#8217;s hard to believe that it&#8217;s been a whole 9 1\/2 months since &#8220;lockdown&#8221;\u00a0started and yet it\u00a0also feels\u00a0like it&#8217;s been <em>years<\/em>. The isolation that cut like a knife last Spring is starting to feel normal, which is\u00a0deeply concerning.\u00a0And it&#8217;s hard to look forward and imagine what &#8220;normal&#8221; is even going to look like in the future. I honestly can&#8217;t\u00a0picture any of it. I just know that after revealing so many of the gaping holes in the foundation of our capitalist, racist, sexist, ableist society, going back to the old &#8220;normal&#8221; would be just about the worst thing we could do.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m very\u00a0aware of the enormous privilege I have and am grateful that my husband and I both still have jobs and are able to work from home while my son does online school. It hasn&#8217;t been easy this year, but we&#8217;re doing fine. And in the midst of all the stress and the truly truly awful, we\u00a0have\u00a0managed to find\u00a0moments of joy.<\/p>\n<p><strong>People Who Inspire Me Regularly and Give me Faith in Humanity<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>When things are bad,\u00a0I find it therapeutic to look to people whose work or example inspires me. These people remind me that there is still so much good in the world. I have learned so much from the examples of others and these people have helped me to be a better version of myself.\u00a0I am so grateful that these people exist and that they generously share so much of themselves and\/or their work (either with the world or on a more local level with me): Allie Flanary, Zoe Fisher, Emily Drabinski, Kaetrena Davis Kendrick, Adam Farkas, Melissa Wong, Nicole Cook, Veronica Arellano Douglas, Kendra Levine, Johanna Jacobsen Kiciman,\u00a0Alison Macrina, Sara Robertson,\u00a0Callan Bignoli,\u00a0Adrienne Maree Brown, Nicole Pagowsky, Tara Brach, Adam Grant, the amazing\u00a0people who founded and run\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/www.wehere.space\/\" target=\"_blank\">We Here<\/a>, Jocelyn K. Glei, Violet Fox, McKensie Mack, Amanda Leftwich, Kelly McElroy, Reed Garber-Pearson, Anne Helen Peterson, Andromeda Yelton, and Merinda Hensley. Thank you all for being amazing, generous, and inspiring in your own ways.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Books that\u00a0Sparked Joy This Year<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><em>Radical Self-Compassion<\/em> by Tara Brach &#8211; this book has had such a huge impact on my life. I would recommend it to anyone who feels like they are often hard on or critical of themselves. I am so grateful to have discovered Tara Brach and her work.<\/li>\n<li><em>Do Nothing<\/em> by Celeste Headley<\/li>\n<li><em>In Praise of Slowness<\/em> by Carl Honoree<\/li>\n<li><em>Slow Food Nation : Why Our Food Should Be Good, Clean, and Fair<\/em> by Carlo Petrini<\/li>\n<li><em>Democracy at Work<\/em> by Richard Wolff (hard to believe that a book by an economist would spark joy, but wow, did I need this)<\/li>\n<li><em>Royal Holiday<\/em>\u00a0by Jasmine Guillory<\/li>\n<li><em>Party of Two<\/em> by Jasmine Guillory<\/li>\n<li><em>Wow, No Thank You<\/em> by Samantha Irby<\/li>\n<li>Poetry by Mary Oliver, especially <em>Felicity<\/em><\/li>\n<li><em>Mindful Tech<\/em> by David Levy<\/li>\n<li><em>The Heir Affair<\/em> by Heather Cocks<\/li>\n<li>Get a Life\u00a0Chloe\u00a0Brown by Talia Hibbert<\/li>\n<li><em>The Bride Test<\/em> by Helen Hoang<\/li>\n<li><em>Beach Read<\/em> by Emily Henry<\/li>\n<li><em>Dear Girls<\/em> by Ali Wong (the audiobook is read by Ali Wong and is <em>hilarious<\/em>)<\/li>\n<li><em>Digital Minimalism: Choosing a Focused Life in a Noisy World<\/em> by Cal Newport<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p> <br \/>\n<strong>Best Books I Read This Year<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><em>Trust Exercises<\/em> by Susan Choi (I had to check to make sure she hadn&#8217;t attended my arts high school because it felt so incredibly familiar, especially her descriptions of the casual sexism, favoritism, and &#8220;Brotherhood\u00a0of the Arts&#8221;)<\/li>\n<li><em>The Collected Schizophrenias<\/em> by Esm\u00e9 Weijun Wang<\/li>\n<li><em>Hidden Valley Road<\/em> by Robert Kolker<\/li>\n<li><em>Weather<\/em> by Jenny Ofill<\/li>\n<li><em>The Glass House<\/em> by Emily St. John Mandel<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p> <br \/>\n<strong>TV and Movies that Sparked Joy<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Great British Baking Show<\/li>\n<li>Ted Lasso<\/li>\n<li>Miracle Workers<\/li>\n<li>Soul<\/li>\n<li>Marvelous Mrs. Maisel<\/li>\n<li>Schitt&#8217;s Creek<\/li>\n<li>Kim&#8217;s Convenience<\/li>\n<li>Derry Girls<\/li>\n<li>Emma<\/li>\n<li>Never Have I Ever<\/li>\n<li>Jojo Rabbit<\/li>\n<li>The Good Place<\/li>\n<li>The Office (just finished rewatching this with my son &#8212; first time for him &#8212; and it&#8217;s even better than I remembered!)<\/li>\n<li>Brockmire<\/li>\n<li>Palm Springs<\/li>\n<li>The Mandalorian<\/li>\n<li>Star Trek: Discovery<\/li>\n<li>Dash and Lily<\/li>\n<li>The Queen&#8217;s Gambit<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p> <br \/>\n<strong>Best TV I Watched\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>I May Destroy You<\/li>\n<li>Ramy<\/li>\n<li>Bojack Horseman<\/li>\n<li>Watchmen<\/li>\n<li>La Casa de Papel<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p> <br \/>\n<strong>Podcasts That Made My Life Better<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>10% Happier<\/li>\n<li>Hurry Slowly<\/li>\n<li>The Anxious Overachiever<\/li>\n<li>Everything Happens<\/li>\n<li>You&#8217;re Wrong About (especially the series about Princess Diana, which was a great counterpoint to The Crown)<\/li>\n<li>Call Your Girlfriend<\/li>\n<li>Armchair Expert<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p> <br \/>\n<strong>Moments of Joy This Year<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Improving my Spanish &#8211; this is the thing I&#8217;m most proud of this year. When I was younger, while I studied Spanish, I resisted it because of my relationship with my mom (who is from Spain) and wanting to reject things associated with her. But my pathetic, limited Spanish made it nearly impossible to connect with my dear aunts, uncles, and cousins (none of whom speak English) and my beloved abuela who forgot English in her final year of life. I&#8217;ve been so filled with regret and shame over my poor Spanish-speaking, but I finally decided to change that. I&#8217;ve been taking Spanish classes, listening to Spanish podcasts, watching Spanish movies &amp; TV, speaking Spanish with my dad, and practicing all I can this year and I&#8217;ve made incredible strides. I can now read emails from my cousin in Galicia\u00a0without\u00a0needing to look things up. I feel more connected to a heritage I love and am proud of and I&#8217;m so glad I stopped wallowing in shame and did something about it.<\/li>\n<li>Zoom meetups with family and friends and\u00a0socially-distant outdoor catch-ups with neighbors<\/li>\n<li>Getting an Airbnb with a pool\u00a0one weekend<\/li>\n<li>Long bike rides in Sunriver (Central Oregon)\u00a0in Fall<\/li>\n<li>Long walks\u00a0around our neighborhood<\/li>\n<li>My 10-mile walk\u00a0along a lonely stretch of\u00a0beach to the end of the jetty where I was all alone with sea lions and bald eagles<\/li>\n<li>Getting out to farms to pick berries\/pick apples\/feed llamas gave us moments that almost felt &#8220;normal&#8221;<\/li>\n<li>Making a fancy dinner and all of us getting dressed up for the occasion<\/li>\n<li>Getting takeout from our favorite restaurants<\/li>\n<li>The talk I gave at the New York Library Association Conference on <a href=\"https:\/\/docs.google.com\/presentation\/d\/1DeOVaqJpfuM0ssbBsereN5UuORs9pBwz_Xsf1oYtc24\/\" target=\"_blank\"><em>Resisting Achievement Culture with Slow Librarianship<\/em><\/a>, which I&#8217;ll be reprising for a keynote at the <a href=\"https:\/\/www.navronline.org\/home\" target=\"_blank\">North American Virtual Reference Online Conference<\/a> in February. It&#8217;s the first talk I&#8217;ve ever given where instead of talking about concrete library services, I shared my vision for &#8220;slow librarianship&#8221;\u00a0that I&#8217;ve been mulling over in my head for a while. It felt good to get it out of my brain and I\u00a0was blessed to have\u00a0such a generous audience for my crackpot ideas!<\/li>\n<li>Baking\u00a0&#8211; this was the year of cakes, cookies, and babka for me while my husband learned to bake incredible bread. I&#8217;ve never been much of a baker and it was gratifying to successfully (some of the time) make things I\u00a0never thought I could.<\/li>\n<li>Finding ways to create moments of joy for my son, including the challenging and fun treasure hunts I\u00a0made for him for Halloween and Hanukkah<\/li>\n<li>Watching my son fall in love with playing the clarinet<\/li>\n<li>Supporting my son&#8217;s schooling. Yeah, it&#8217;s hard and a lot of work (especially with a full-time job too), but I treasure the time I get to spend with this bright, empathetic, funny human being.<\/li>\n<li>Snuggling with the family and appreciating that my\u00a0days of snuggling with my son are fleeting<\/li>\n<li>The gift of more\u00a0time with my family<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>What brought you joy this year?\u00a0I wish each of you a 2021 that is more humane, more full of safe human contact, and more full of joy. And always remember that you are <em>enough<\/em> just as you are.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Wow, this has been a hard\u00a0year. 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